Just Thought I'd Share.

I woke up this morning with this song in my head, felt like sharing.

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

I Love My Life!

I feel really happy today. It's just been super spectacular! I had the day off (both from work AND from school), I slept until ten, worked on my homework, showered, met with my teacher concerning my homework, had lunch with an awesome friend(!), came home, was visited by one of my old roommates (which always makes my day!), found out that two of my old roommates are now my visiting teachers (!), went to the store and bought ice-cream (which is always called for when you finish writing a HUGE paper!), and now I'm watching a movie! ...Anyways, I'm just sitting on cloud nine and I don't even really know why!

The Outhouse.

I'm cleaning offices this week at work and I have a tendency to see things with my hands. I want to pick up EVERYTHING and touch EVERYTHING! And you wouldn't believe how many neato things these professors have. Anyways, my first day on offices I found this awesome looking outhouse. All detailed and, of course, I wanted to look inside. And this is what happened.... (Except for, I was alone)

Dear Knight.

I used to sit upon the sill
And wait
And wonder what the world was like
Out there beyond these walls
And dream of how my life would be
When you climbed into my tower.

I used to plan out in my head
And think
Of all the things I’d love to do
Out there beyond my rise
And pass the time by counting days
Until you climbed into my tower

I used to dream while in my sleep
And marvel
At the world and of the people in it
And of the adventures I could have
If only you would get here
And climb into my tower

I used to sit upon the sill
And wait
And plan the days I’d spend with you
But I could not wait forever
So I got up and packed my things
And climbed out of my tower

And now it’s up to you
Dear Knight
You can either come and find me
Living out my dreams
Or you can choose to stay
And wait there in my tower

Leave Me Not Alone.

Leave me not alone
To walk this road
Of which I’m unfamiliar
The path is long
The way is hard
The journey of a thousand miles
I cannot go alone

Leave me not alone
To climb these mountains
Of which I made myself
The walls are steep
The rocks are sharp
The climb of a thousand peaks
I cannot go alone

Leave me not alone
To swim this lake
Of which I’ve never seen
The fog is thick
The water is cold
The voyage of a thousand leagues
I cannot go alone

Leave me not alone
To go through every day
In which I never see or hear
The familiar face
The comforting voice
The one who loves a thousand ways
Leave me not alone

But if you must
Leave me with
a kiss
a hug
a promise
Let me know that you still love me
Let me feel you close beside me
Let me know that you will not forget me
When you leave me all alone

My Weekend.

Sunday evening my roommates practically FORCED, well, rather INSISTED that I go with them to a game night. The games were at a boy's apartment with tons of people that I didn't know and I was skeptical on going. But I went. And it was actually really fun! One of the funny parts about it was that when I got there, there was this girl whom I knew from two years ago, my first semester. We met doing early morning custodial together and then she left for Washington to go on her mission and I figured I'd never see her again. But there she was. Playing games. Anyway, it was nice to catch up with her. And what are the odds?

Anyways, also, last night I stayed up SUPER LATE with my roommates (well, all but one. She had to get her beauty sleep for her engagement pictures today). My roommates and I talked, and talked, and talked. The subjects of the conversation mostly revolved around two of the girls and I feel like I know them really well now! We were up until four this morning and I loved every minute of it. Hooray for late night talks!

On Abuse.

He’s the only one who sees
The scar that no one else can see
A secret that I hold so close
A hidden place inside myself

The scar that no one else can see
Wakes me from my pleasant dreams
A hidden place inside myself
A place of my Gethsemane

It wakes me from my pleasant dreams
The face that haunts my memories
A place of my Gethsemane
Where I am torn and used and broken

The face that haunts my memories
A secret that I hold so close
Where I am torn and used and broken
And He’s the only one who sees
The scar that no one else can see

Resolutions, Goals, Wishes, Whatever.

Better late than never!

1. Get straight A's in these next two semesters.
2. Write more letters; make more phone calls.
3. Attend the Temple at least twice a month.
4. Exercise at least three times a week.
5. Read my scriptures every morning AND night.
6. Make friends with my roommates.
7. Create a budget.
8. Write more.
9. Save money
10. Be Happy.

Poetry.

So, I'm taking a poetry class this semester. And at first I was SUPER worried that it was going to be really hard, but I was wrong. It's actually not that bad. We read a ton of poetry, evaluate it, and then write poetry of our own. We have a poem due every week. And that makes roughly fourteen poems. Not too bad. So if you see random poems posted, that's just because those are ones that I REALLY like. Or one's that I've written. (And if that's the case feel free to critique them!) So anyway, here's my first poem. And it's suppose to be about poetry.

POETRY

My sister plays piano
My brother reads his books
And my father works and works
But I,
I write the words I cannot say.

In music there is voice
To all things left unspoken
The keys play on my heartstrings
And I,
I write the words I cannot say.

In books there is a life
That can be lived by any reader
Worlds of people and emotion wait
When I,
I write the words I cannot say.

In work there is a chance
To forget the stress of every day
And leave this ashen world behind
But I cannot forget
And so,
I write the words I cannot say.

Dive For Dreams

By E.E. Cummings

dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots
and wind is wind)

trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward)

honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death
away at this wedding)

never mind a world
with its villains or heroes
(for god likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth)

Family Realtions.

Alright, I'm taking a class this semester called Family Relations and one of our assignments is to create a blog and to make entries at least weekly regarding the readings, class discussions, videos, etc. etc. I tried posting it directly on this blog, but it doesn't allow for any comments. So anyway, I just bagged that whole thing and made a whole separate blog. The blog is called Family Relations (obviously) and I know both my professor and myself would appreciate any comments that you have to make. So anyways, if you have the time and means to read all about this kind of stuff I'd appreciate it. ;)

The Waking.

By Theodore Roethke

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me; so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

Just the Few Things On My Mind.

You'd think I'd be use to this by now, but no. I have all these butterflies in my stomach and I'm not technically leaving for another day and a half. And I'm not even sure which part I'm stressing out about exactly. Is it the long wait at the airport, the meeting of roommates, not even knowing how much my financial aid is yet, leaving home, not wanting to say goodbye, picking up my school books, buying groceries, weather or not I'll have enough money for groceries, weather or not I'm going to have to take out my earnings to go through security, the anticipation of having to wake up at three in the morning every day, missing ALL my classes on the first day, packing, unpacking, what the heck I'm going to eat for dinner the first day, weather I should wear flip-flops or tennis shoes to go through security (still haven't quite figured that one out), checking in for my housing, how cold it's going to be when I finally get there, how cold it's going to be will be when I wake up at three in the morning, weather or not I'll get a calling, ...anyway. The list goes on.

..I guess that's basically all that's on my mind right now. Oh no wait. I did get my ears pierced on Friday. I went to the mall with one of my friends and got them pierced there at Claire's. I didn't cry, but I did shut my eyes and squeezed the life out of my friend's hand, but you know. It's all good. I'm just waiting for the day when I can wear dangly earrings instead of just posts. But that won't be for like... Ever. Maybe for my next birthday... Anyways. Wish me luck!